Sunday, October 24, 2010

my blame, my fault, me insane

insane for wanting to love-
it's not a real thing, love- at least the kind i'm searching for ...
so i blame me, for trying- i need to give up hope, and hope no more, and try no more - for i am dead to the world and to my girlfriends who cannot deal with my love! you know it's time to bawl again, soak my ears with tears again - for it's all my fault trying to love her - she's not interested, and i cannot afford it anymore, but she will remain my friend for evermore!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

starved

don't care about eating, so done trying and praying, so done anymore with my sadness, giving up, mow the lawn then die, cry, exist, carry on until mom and dad go then i can ... there was not a planet earth 100 million years ago, maybe one million, but 100 million, i must laugh ...
only desperation gives me life - only hope kills me - God of all time send us mysterious love - i cannot stand this pain - i'm nothing to gain, and society and people prove it again and again ...

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

be ready - my words mean so

it's coming, the day of waiting is over ... it will spring up in front of you soon, grab it - life!
time is first and you are second in line ... no one wants to hear you whine!
exist to the final death of breath ... and meet your ol' pals again, and your loved ones and fam, and jam and play poker, hunt, swim, have lots of sex!

Sunday, October 03, 2010

long days

short nights, long days, of nothing, but but but tears ...
what shall i do? oh no, i know nothing, but but tears,
tomorrow is gone already, because i cried it away ... same thing day after day, of love dying ...