since when?

since no one whom i know of reads my blog anyway, i'll jot down my final opus to say i've had it some kind of way!
had enough of the who; had enough of you; had enough of me; had enough of no glee!
peace continues with you but not me;
head hurting again today; no love in my way; cancellations betray me!
so on my grave rest my mind; you can have all that was mine ...
move into your own troubles and loneliness without me ...
here i sit and lay and die!